#literally a sneak peek into my own inner monologue
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orange, purple, turquoise, claret, emerald, honey, rust, amethyst, prussian blue, rose quartz!! I hope you have fun with these questions 🥰💐🧡
orange - if you could, would you change your eye color? why? to color, if so?
ahh i do like my eye color!! i feel like one of the things that hasn’t changed much about me is the expression in my eyes since the very beginning. my eyes remind me of who i am. i experience so much without even perceiving them and with my eyes closed as well so i enjoy them and tend to forget what they look like at the same time haha my reflection is always a surprise!! i always wonder what they look like to others when they look into my eyes. my eyes seem to be a mix of colors? somewhere around hazel blue and grey i believe? ahh all eyes colors are so beautiful though!! i especially love eyes in the sunlight!!oh how they shine and sparkle!! hmm if i were to change my eyes maybe for fun on occasion! hehei would like a special color that is warm and inviting so anyone that meets my gaze can feel a sense of calm. perhaps an escape for a moment in time.like a kind yellow or purple or silver. ooo periwinkle would be pretty!! it’s a color i could stare at for hours and one of the first colors that i remember!! i am very fond of periwinkle. yes i think if i had a choice my eyes would be periwinkle!! for now i love my eyes the way they are!! your eyes are so lovable just the way they are!!
purple - a poem you think describes your closest friend
i want to cook for you
i want to bake for you
i want to cook homemade meals for you
and love with you
written by a wonderful poet hehe 😉🥰💐
turquoise - favorite sea animal?
ahh what a decision they are all so lovely aren’t they? so many sea animals and creatures!! hmmm let’s see what comes to mind? omg this is so hard ahhhhmy brain is so excited i can’t even ahh i think of sharks, whales, whale sharks, dolphins, otters, seals, sea lions, narwhals, manatees, sea turtles, lionfish, oarfish, manta ray, anemone ahh omg this might be more sea creature hahaahh i love so many ahh ok ok the sea is just too wonderful and all who inhabit the sea and around the sea!! i think i’ll go with jellyfish!! i really adore moon jellies!!
claret - do you play an instrument? do you want to learn to play any?
ahh i used to play piano and xylophone and would like to learn again in the future! i only know a little kalimba for fun at the moment! oh my gosh so many instruments. if my lungs were stronger a wind instrument would be fun like an oboe!! ahh a violin or a cello would be very nice!! i love string and percussion instruments like a harp!! omg i would love to play a harp!! i also really love dulcimers!! i thought of learning to play a dulcimer and/or a theremin for a possible future creative endeavor hint hint hehe so those two came to mind the most!! i would also be very happy to create my own sound effects some day!! i love and admire sound effects a lot and i think the process of sfx is very cool and how i could use every day objects and surfaces around me to create an array of sounds is very exciting!! hehe i yearn for the sound of footsteps 😭
emerald - if you had the option, would you choose to move and live in another country? which one?
i haven’t thought of living in another country very often actually but i have thought of visiting!! i was always happy with my familiar surroundings here or living in a similar environment that feels comfortable and good and i don’t have to look far for new and exciting adventures big and small!! hehe i remember wanted to study abroad when i was younger. the first few places that come to mind that i would like to visit is Japan, Switzerland and Norway so perhaps i would live there? when i think of living some place i envision a home that feels safe and warm and cozy and serene. a space for myself and to share with another like my cats and perhaps a partner or a friend if they wish hehenot too far away from my loved ones and if so i would happily travel to see them surrounded by nature and the seasons and good energy and good times. activities i enjoy and much to explore. enjoying all the small things in life.so regardless of where i am i would love that life very much!! also a train through the countryside and lots of tea and tiny treasures in life pretty please 🥺
honey - your thoughts on magic does it exist?
why yes of course!! i feel like i have experienced an array of magical times and moments throughout my lifetime here many things in life feel magic to methis world is very magical after all!! i believe in magic!! can’t you feel it? for example the lovely being who sent me these asks is brimming with magic 💐✨
rust - form of art you enjoy doing?
where do i begin? hehe ahh i love art sooo much!! i personally enjoy photography very much with photography it’s more like the art finds me more than i pursue art? i take photos very spontaneously when i feel the moment is right or when i stumble upon a photo i envision that is presented right in front of me like ah there you are!! more than setting ones up ahead of time but it can be fun to prepare for photos too. there’s so much art to admire and create!! i also feel drawn to miniatures, animation, stop motion animation, film, illustration, comics, needle felting, writing, music etc to name a few since there are so so many!! i love how endless and lively all forms of art are in this world. perhaps my favorite art is life itself and the art of being myself and being able to share art with the world with another precious humanl would make me very happy ✨
amethyst - do you collect anything?
ah yes i do!! i collect vintage cat collectibles and mugs and animated films!! also any cat who steals my heart which is too many to count!! hehe so much of their love and memories of them as well as people and places and inanimate objects reside within myself. like a vast library stored in my very soul. ahh the scent of old books. how it tempts me. my soul would enjoy that fragrance hehe i also simply adore tea and treats ahh and i collect a lot of warmth and love hehe
prussian blue - what’s your first choice at a vending machine?
my first thought was cookies? haha i have never had cookies from a vending machine! when i was younger i would get chips or candy or soda! i feel like i spent way more time staring at what i could get in a vending machine than actually getting anything haha so by the time i could get something i would be on to my next stop!! if i did get anything from a vending machine it always felt like a treat the whole process of pushing buttons and waiting for the satisfying drop and even the frustrating wrinkled dollar bills were a good time hehe like everything inside was special even the most ordinary of snacks and drinks in the next vending machine i encounter kitkats are my first pick!! or tea!! hehe i would love to see what kinds of vending machines are out there like ones with special items?? like warm drinks!! ahh vending machines are great fun hehe
rose quartz - rings or necklaces
ahh that’s a hard one!! i don’t usually wear a lot of jewelry but i have grown to be more fond of rings lately! i like admiring them on my hands and the feeling of playing with them on my fingers and how they dance in the light so freely like they were meant to touch both skin and light warm and cold and in between i do have a necklace that is very very dear to me so i would choose my necklace over rings but i do enjoy wearing rings!! so many ways to express yourself hehe
ahhh thank you so much for all your asks!! i love receiving and answering asks from you!! hehe brings me great joy and you were the first one to send me asks!! 🥰 the magical asks that started it all ✨you know me i intend to write a simple response and end up with a novel 😂 i think this is a new record!! lol i hope you enjoy my very long and detailed answers and i did have a lot of fun with these!! sending you all my love and good energy!! i love youu so much!! 🥺💐💞✨
#💐#artromantiic#ahh thank you for your asks!!#i love youuu soo sooo much!!! 💗#enjoy this novel LOL 😂#i hope this makes you smile when you read everything and wakes you up softly like a morning newspaper#i really went all out on this one hahaha#long post#this long post was brought to you by Benadryl and hyperfocus#literally a sneak peek into my own inner monologue#let it all flow through me#if anyone else sees this long post haha i wish you a good day and wish you well!! 💖
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1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, and 7 for the writing ask- I AM SO SORRY I COULDNT STOP!!! xoxo
aaaah these questions look SO GOOD thank you so much <3 <3 for this ask meme, which will be open all weekend!
1. tell us about your current project(s) – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?
i pulled open all of my WIP google docs for this and my laptop started whirring ominously, lmao. this is going to be a Little Long but i love talking about my wips so who cares!! (under the cut because EXCERPTS)
guys and dolls but gay - very, very casual rewrite of guys and dolls if sky masterson was a woman. i’m loving how chill i’m being about this one because it’s so much fun to not have to worry how i’m going to write lyrics in a not-weird way and just focus on the story. this one’s first because it’s theoretically closest to being finished.
sky, laughing: “oh? people. all the people you turn down every day. well, i imagine there’s someone out there that’ll catch your eye.”
sarah, stiffening: “...yes, there will be.”
sky: “and what might this person be like?”
sarah: “he will not be a gambler, for one.”
sky does not miss the pointed pronoun. “i’m not interested in what he won’t be, i’m interested in what he will be.” she sits down on the desk, in a pointedly masculine pose, and sets her fedora next to her - at her most Hot Queer, basically. “how will you know when he gets to you?”
my fic for the aos rarepair fic exchange - i can’t give any plot or ship details, for obvious reasons, but it’s 1.3k and i’m having fun with it!
steven roadtrip of destiny - canon divergent fic set at the end of steven universe future where steven goes on a roadtrip instead of... canon. it deals with some heavy emotions and it’s also a character study so it’s tentatively shelved until i get around to rewatching suf. but i am projecting on steven like crazy and it’s really, really cathartic. it’s taught me a lot about myself too lmao.
He’s never been anonymous before. He kind of likes it. It means he can fold his arms on the table and put his head down without Pearl worrying about his posture, or someone asking him if something’s okay.
In the last few months, he’s grown to hate people asking him how he’s doing, or if he’s okay. He always ends up lying, because he doesn’t want to worry them, and he ends up feeling worse.
Probably because it’s more of him supporting other people without supporting himself.
He should have told someone how he was feeling. He should have reached out. Sadie could’ve helped him. Lars would’ve listened. Connie would have hugged him and then found him the appropriate mental health professional.
(God, Steven wants a hug. Also the appropriate mental health professional? Whoever that would be.)
untitled aos fic - i don’t want to give a lot of details because :eye emoji: and also i don’t know much about what the plot of this is going to be anyway, lmao. but here’s an excerpt:
daisy “that actor who doesn’t shut up about data harvesting” johnson (@daisyquake) tweeted: two weeks :eyes emoji:
Elena Rodriguez | Seven Cents S2 Streaming On Netflix Now! (@yoyorodriguez) retweeted and added: the problem with being friends with daisy is that you SHOULD have some insight into what her tweets mean but you still have no idea
Fitz (@justfitz) retweeted and added: Try being married to her
untitled star wars twins fic - because i am a total and massive nerd. i’m just kind of stuffing everything i have feels about from the post-anh era into this and planning on figuring it out later? i’m really loving talking about the culture of alderaan (and the culture of the survivors) and also i just love writing luke and leia’s relationship... so much......
(no excerpt for that one because i’ve basically posted all of it in various posts lmao)
aos ds9 au - i’ve posted a LOT about this already and i want to keep the plot a surprise but fsk is in this and married and half the cast is aliens, what else do you need in life.
“Good morning,” says Jemma, coming into the room with her hair wet and her uniform crooked. “Hello, darling.”
“Hi,” says Daisy, turning her face up for a kiss. Jemma obliges absently as she walks past, looking around the room.
“Has anyone seen my hair clip?”
“No,” say Fitz and Daisy in unison.
and of course, last but never least in my heart, chapter 3 of the magnum opus - writing this is on hold until my brain decides to stop hitting me over the head at every possible moment, but there’s like... 2k written so far? it’s. it’s going.
“Yeah, yeah,” says Coulson, and makes quick work of the right gauntlet. It’s only halfway through the left one that his fingers slow and he says, quietly, “Simmons designed these, didn’t she?”
She lets out a quick breath. “Yeah.”
He stays quiet for a few more seconds, finishing up the last of the straps, making sure they’re tight enough. Finally, he says, “She should be helping you with these.”
Daisy pulls her arms back and swallows down some words, or maybe a couple of feelings, or maybe a sob. “Yeah, well.”
2. tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project
the last sentence of the magnum opus!!!!!!!!!!
no, lmao, i’m gonna try to be serious. i really, really want to write some librarians fic in the near future? also MORE OF THE SENSE8 AU. i’m DYING to write some stuff about that. especially sam’s cluster, for some reason? Let’s Make Him Suffer (Comedically)! one day i’m gonna finish that list of what cluster/situation each song is about and then it’ll be over for all of us!
3. what is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)
i spent about eight months imagining a scene where riza hawkeye was really injured and mustang was holding her in his arms (basically the promised day scene but with more privacy) so does that count?
hmm, just for some other possibilities: glinda telling dorothy about elphaba, laura somehow seeing or speaking to natasha during catws, a good omens au of the good place (specifically the ”i don’t even like you!” / “you doooooooo” scene), kencyrath au of star wars (ESPECIALLY THIS ONE, except setting up the first scene alone would take 7k, but i want to talk about leia and luke and their MESSED UP TRUST ISSUES in this au).
oh, also, something about star trek tng where jean-luc and beverly and jack were in love and then jack died and picard left. more specifically a scene set during the pilot episode where jean-luc very cordially offers beverly the option to transfer off the enterprise, that he wouldn’t dream of holding it against her, and beverly very cordially telling jean-luc to go fuck himself. i want to write 30k of that broken triad. i want it so bad. i dream of that fic. maybe one day when i find myself with a completely empty month or two, i’ll binge all of tng and Write Some Stuff.
4. share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)
since you and i have tww in common, i’m gonna do a tww fic! otherwise i’d have to reread literally every fic i’ve ever written, lmao.
(this is long but i put this post under the cut so i have RIGHTS. also consider this a sneak peek for the j/d fic in the sense8 au?)
“It’s okay,” says Helen. She sits for a moment in silence, seeming thoughtful. “The Congressman and I are in the same cluster,” she says eventually. “I’d- I supposed that’s easier on the Secret Service?”
“Yes,” says Donna. “The-”
She stops herself from saying anything further. President Bartlet and the First Lady aren’t exactly quiet about who’s in their cluster, especially with senior staff, but that doesn’t mean she should go talking about it in an unsecured room in LA, of all places.
To cover for her blunder, she gives up something else: “The same with Josh. They got really lucky with him, actually. It’s just him and me, so they won’t have to worry about anyone threatening the Chief of Staff through the barista in the local Starbucks.”
Helen looks up from the Ohio numbers she’d drifted back to, a slow smile creeping up on her face. “Josh is in your cluster?”
“Uh-” says Donna, feeling like national security wasn’t worth whatever she’s just blundered into. Oops. “Josh- Josh is my cluster, ma’am.”
She catches her mistake the second it’s out of her mouth, but Helen doesn’t call her on it, more focused on other revelations. “No wonder you two look at each other the way you do!” she says, sounding delighted. Donna shuts her eyes, praying for this to go away. It’s not that she’s ashamed of Josh - it’s just so, so complicated, and other people never think about how difficult it was. Still is.
i’m just... i really liked the idea of donna fumbling and having to reveal this to cover up for what else she was going to say? i don’t know why i’m so charmed by this. i think it’s because it would be impossible in the show - you can’t show what someone was going to say on television, not without a lot of setup and very careful scripting. it’s just a really fun situation to write about and i’m really proud of this conversation in general.
also helen santos was a dream to write and i love her a lot. i kind of want to write one of the fics in the series about her and her cluster solely because like... look at her. she’s a delight in literally every scene. i love her.
5. what character that you’re writing do you most identify with?
daisy johnson!!! i love writing daisy johnson!!!! she is the most adhd character i’ve ever written and i literally just have to transcribe my own inner monologue and it works perfectly!!!!!
Swing shift: 1600 hours to 2400 hours. Daisy always ends up getting back to her quarters at like 0030 hours, when Jemma is asleep and Fitz is reading some kind of technical journal. Then she has to eat replicated pizza, alone, and freshly replicated pizza is actually pretty hot but it feels cold at that time of night, like, spiritually.
6. what character do you have the most fun writing?
...whoops i literally just answered that lmao. uh. i also really love writing sky masterson in the guys and dolls fic? she’s just weaponized hot queerness in a suit and i love her for it. she is intentionally trying to seduce this repressed lesbian and it’s really funny and also really hot of her and it’s so much fun to write.
also, i wrote chidi for the tgp fic and it was possibly the most fun i’ve ever had with a pov, although that was also because i was purposefully trying to mimic the tone of the show. i still think that line about michael and a grenade is, like, the funniest i have ever been in my life. but chidi’s panic was surprisingly easy to write? all of tgp’s characters have such STRONG voices, it makes writing fic ridiculously easy as long as you don’t get stuck on a plot for six months.
7. what do you think are the characteristics of your personal writing style? would others agree?
oof, this one is ALWAYS tricky. uh? uhh?? i’m going to ruin everything by saying this but i basically alternate between the same two sentence structures and i am really frustrated about it. i also alternate between the same two styles of endings and i always use the same beginning (set scene, main character pov, thoughts-as-exposition, back to scene).
BUT ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE i like to talk about emotions and relationships and character development!! i have my “queer subtext goggles” superglued to my face, lmao. i like to think about how characters must have felt about things in canon and how it must’ve influenced them. i like making people deal with the consequences of their actions, especially how it’s influenced they themself. i also just really, really like writing people who love each other, whether it’s romantic or platonic or anything in between. i just want them to be happy! i just want them to stick together! doesn’t matter what fandom, i stand by it.
#loudwithlaughter#sb and l rambles#sb and l answers#sb and l is writing#thank you for sending this in!!!!!#now for literally All The Tags lmao#aos ds9 au#verse: fitzskimmons thingy#fic: you're a candle in the window#verse: and it's golden#mcu ideas#tgp ideas#st ideas#fic: help me hold on to you#fic: on that bumpy road to love#jesus CHRIST that was a lot of tags#okay okay i'm pressing post now#this was such a delight thank you SO much for sending it!#the steven roadtrip of self discovery fic
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